I don't understand . . .

I feel so lost . . . so alone. I feel as though no one really understands. How could they, I don't even understand. I feel like the walls are falling down around me. There is so much I want, goals, a future and I just can't seem to get there. So many things seems to stand in my way. I realize working for something is the best way, and I'm no stranger to hard work but it's not a hill I'm trying to climb, it's not even a mountain. I'm trying to get up a straight glass wall that has no grips or hand holes. I feel like no matter how hard I try at anything, I get nowhere. And besides that people around me keep disappointing me. I try to put my faith in people, but every time I do, they disappoint me. I don't want to not trust people, but mankind makes it hard. Perhaps I should go back to my jaded self that expects the worst in people and that way I'm not disappointed. I also seem to get way to emotional over the little things in life. Small disappointments become something so much more. I try not to make mountains out of mole hills, but things just seem to hit really hard lately. I feel like I need to get out of this town, out of this city, clear my head. I want to escape.